.Sunday, September 30, 2007 ' 12:42 AM Y
im so disgustingly disappointed with myself. i have thought im so many things that i now realise im not.
i thought im confident. i dun mind standing out in the crowd because im sure about myself.
if i was i wun even be getting shit jealous over stupid stuff.
i thought im understanding. poeple talk to me when they are sad.
thing is i dun even understand myself. i kick up a great fuss over stupid things.
i thought im sacrificial. i help my friends even if im in urgent need to complete stuff.
i cant even change for someone i love.
i thought im forgiving. ive never been angry with anyone for more than a day.
yet there i was planning how to get back at people a hundred times worse than what they do to me.
i thought im a good gf.
i see now that im not.
